Me

Beyond the surface I am a very complicated person. Events of the past few days have made me realize certain things about myself that are changing the way I perceive who I am. I over-think, over-analyze, criticize and indulge much too heavily in self-reflection that I find it very hard to live with me.

I do try to not be so self-tormenting, but as it has always been a shortcoming of mine, the habit is hard to shake. The problem is I exude confidence within the comforts of my own space but as soon as I make the leap into the outside world, self-consciousness becomes me.

The honest, absolutely-no-embellishments-made truth, is that I am not content with who I am at this point in my life. Sure, there are aspects that I am happy about, but mostly those have to do with the loving people that surround me.

I am simply not yet the person that I want to be and feel like, and I’m realizing now, that these insecurities are beginning to show.